I don't want to post Depressing posts :(

(btw, on the side note, blogs are not meant to be understood.)

no, i really really don't. i really don't want to post depressing post. but how else am i suppose to break out of all the sadness?

"i'm in the verge of letting go and wanting back"

i really don't like discussing about it. i'll just have to skip to the main points then.

1. what position are we actually in right now?
2. you're too nice to me. I will be okay, if it means i'll have to suffer to be distant from you.
3. we're going through uncertainty over and over and over
4. i keep going back to the same topic to SHAKE you
5. i keep going back to the same topic to EMPHASIZE to you
6. i keep going back to the same topic to OPEN your head

-- i hate going through uncertainty.

maybe i am selfish. maybe i just want people to look at me as if i was UP and ABOVE. but that's not all the case. this is my feelings towards you, and it's still the same as it was before. it kills me when i know things are not going to be the same. it is all different from now on. i understand.